You were the last haunting
Passed too long to linger
Came through the wall, became my longing
Decided in my leaving to not fight for feelings
as though your feelings were never there
Maybe I’m too much and I don’t spend enough
time beautifying time
and so time someone’s love cannot spare to be mine
My company, silently warm attempts to love
so that they might try loving me
He was the last haunting
I gave away these soul songs and pretty words too soon
For I was still shaping them, defining direct and dislocated desperate meaning
So as you leave this dream again,
don’t turn your spirited musings back at me
Because fragment man, I don’t understand
You didn’t even have the decency
to tell me you would only be another haunting
passed much too long to linger
Why would you let such a beautiful dream
slip right through your weary fingers?
Carrie Gilbert 2013
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